Questions without answers
Her feelings she hides.Her dreams she can't find.
okay.i'm just spastic enough to go to northpoint alone again, just to buy stickers and then came back with dinner for family.and the noodles tasted real bad.didnt finish it and now i'm uber hungry la.somemore it's so cold out there just now cos of the dumb rain.
never like raining days cos they are only good for emo scenes.the clothes are dry yet cold, seemed like they are semi-wet la.feeling numb and freezy even when i'm at home.and it just worsen any sad people's mood.
i dread to stay at home for long periods la, cos that only makes me to anyhow think more.and if that contiunes, i think i'll go berserk soon.
as i'm saying i hope that two people around me to get attached real soon.both to end something or to solve something that i'm facing.haha.so i shall pray hard for that to happen for the both of them.even if u dun get what i'm talking about, it's okay, cos i dun even want the two particular to know.haha
i'm like viewing my past blog entries, and it was just super random.cos i know i cant write or comment much so it just turns out boring.slowly ba.maybe i will have the courage to blog bout my most inner feelings here.cos i've learned a lesson in a very hard way before.not to write about your most personal thoughts.things wun turn out the way u want it to be.
end conversation with ____and ______.three not very happy people on the phone.what can you expect?but it's better than spending time alone thinking of things that i shouldnt be.
nevermind.meeting up with ahma,phebe after interview with evelim.i wanna a girls' talk.i wanna shop till my legs start complaining.i wanna have all the mudpies,fondue and brownies.i wanna see the people that i want.
sometimes, i'm wondering why cant i be those people out there who can voice their unhappiness or disagreements out loud.why do i've to swallow them all in and let things happen.why cant i just express my feelings straight to the ones that i want to.why cant i just make decisions that i will never regret?why cant i just move on? why cant things just happen in the way i want them to be?why cant i even understand my own feelings and thinkings?why am i a human?
i doubt anyone can ever answer me that...
xoxo,
01:13
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