Her feelings she hides.Her dreams she can't find.
okay, thou i'm like damn sickly but i just cant get to sleep, mum said it's normal when u are seriously ill, cos u will just feel super uncomfortable in wadever you do.ohwell.maybe it's true. i'm like all shivering from the inside of my heart and trembling non-stop when i'm working in the super cold isetan la.so long since i felt that sick, and i tot that i might just faint there anytime.drag myself back home like some dead corpse.and i just keep feeling like bursting into tears cos i'm feeling so terrible all over.i think the weakest of me will be when i'm sososo sick ba, any moment of that just makes me wanna cry for some unknown reason.and my head just felt like it' s gonna explode anytime.
and true enough, back home, the thermometer reads 38.9 degrees celcuis, no wonder i felt half dead.and i was telling brother that just one degree higher, mum will send me to hospital.ohwell.and i just woke up at 4 to take medicine again.cos it's like still 38.7degrees celcuis, and no way i'm feeling better.felt like some jelly and everywhere is aching so much.
dunno if later wake up will feel better anot, if not, i tink i cant make it to wenqi's b'day at marina le, and even if i'm going there, i'm not eating.but it's like so damn long that i last seen most of them.hmm, this seemed to be like cycle la, everytime when i'm working, i'm bound to fall sick, esp the day before i'm meeting people for steamboat.and basically, for a few contiunous months, i've been falling sick practically every month.and that;s bad enough.and i'm feeling so bad that i kept taking leave cos i'm sick.but i'm still too weak to contiune working tmr.ohwell, which means most prob i'm nt working todae.
xoxo,
06:30
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