it's just the beginning..

didnt go to zy's hse, spent the whole day rotting at home, everyone went out, alone at home, doing nth.watched the red shoes alone cos it's showing on one of the scv channel, nth better to watch and i actually watched a horror movie by myself.scared me out for quite a few scenes, quite gross when the people die .but actually i dun think i understand much of the show in the end leh, quite confusing.ohwell.but that's nice la cos it help me to spend bout 2 hours..see, that's how pathetic.no one to blame cos i'm the one who dun wan to go to his hse de.

then actually decide to watch she's the man with eve de cos she's not going to zy's hse too, but we decided to be nice, going to watch with phebe on one of the weekdays.so cont rotting at home lor.

felt quite moody today.maybe cos nth better to do then starts to anyhow think again ba, the more you start to think, the worse your mood becomes .especially when one is alone having nothing to distract her from her thoughts la, or maybe all this time she's just trying to use those time spent on diff things to keep her mind busy and not to think too much, just runnin away perhaps but i think she hates things to be that way too.because many times, people cant control the things and people and feeling that happen around them.and that's why people suffer and depressed.how sad right?but imagine one dae if everything can be control, then wad's the difference between human with blood n flesh and those emotion-less robots?BUT sometimes people will definitely prefer being robots.

aha.me and my crapps agains but nevermind la, if u cant stand al these, dun bother reading at all then.

and sometimes, people try to be okay and fine infront of others to avoid being questioned, even if those are meant to be concern to that someone.sometimes, it just worsen the situation un-intentionally.people might say that one dun need to pretend or act okay in front of their friends but sometimes you just dun want others to know wad happen to u even u are feeling very horrible cos i stil think that when one day that someone cannot take it anymore.which means really breaking down, she will find them.but that doesnt mean she dun need anyone to care for her cos she's still one pathetic human being.but eventually, it's okae and alright if you cant stand all her lame and shit crapps cos everyone can do and tink things in their own way.cos that's their own life and the only one that has to face them for the entire life, 24 hrs per day is only themselves.HAHA.say until very easy right.but try to do all things in ur way and ignore other's feeling and comments la, be it good or bad.if that's that easy, life will have be much better i guess.

LOL.see! that's the aftermath when one just sooooo bored.which means it's still good to keep urself super occupied even to the point of exhaustion...ohwell.get wad i mean.i doubt so.=)

xoxo,
21:05

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